“Oh”

She sits satisfied in the tall grass,
Watching each blade scratch her leg as she lets the time pass…
And as each tear from the sky helps her hide her own
A quick flick from her wrist blurs her eyes that roam…

“Oh” is enough of a sentance to confide,
in the trees and the breaze that hold her up tonight.
“Oh” is enough of a sigh of releif
As she slips into total and utter defeat…

The bitter taste of former sweet lingers off her lips,
Remanice, do forget, oh please grant me this…
Fading but waiting to leave, it’s frustraiting…
Pacing but hesitating cause she longs for a painting…

Of a picture with her,
Oh she’s so picturesque,
Cause when you look at one dimension you always miss the rest..
Cause after the picture she hid her head and wept,
Not just cry, or tear up, it’s a post smile of unrest…

And “Oh” is enough of a sentance to confide,
That your not listening to the words that he avoids every night…
Fading but waiting to leave, it’s frustraiting…
But lately he finds that it’s so entertaining…

He stands up tall against the lip of a cliff,
And each kiss that it gives is a gust where he might slip…
And as each breath he breaths becomes increasingly shallow,
It’s magnified and justified by the canyons great echo…

The scent of content that floats from a hundred miles away,
He can see the light of a star that might not exist today…
Is he chasing something or nothing that’s too far away,
To make out an idea or actual shape.

Night Dreaming

And Ive been here before
No ones knocking at the door.
Im just wating for anything to happen
Anything at all.Good or bad
Just not something average

And I dont feel like Im
Quite living this life right
Its ok, and Im fine.
But things are so ok.
I couldnt fall if I tried.
I dont care enough to cry
When I wake up I just ask why..
What do I do this for.

Fly me on a plane
Clouds and a jetstream washing away
My past
Changing roads again
I was just waiting for
this to happen
Excuse me I need a break from
This pause in living

I vacation in my day dreams
I dream of having a feeling..
Or crying or of smilin.
Just something I cant hold in

Like Saying I love you,
Or knowing that I really do
Or being scared to leave and lose

And I dont feel like Im
Quite living this life right
Its ok, and Im fine.
But things are so ok.
I couldnt fall if I tried.
I dont care enough to cry
When I wake up I just ask why..
What do I do this for.

I do it for the time when she calls
And my heart skips a beat
And when she holds me close
And I cant stay on my feet

I do this for when I look at
Her right when were sleepin
And when I wake up and thank the lord every day.

I do this for me
And it seems so lonely
But when you were near me,
It just seemed to make sense

So Im drifting away
In the memories of yesterday
So If you want to repay me a visit
You know Im fine with all that,
Because you were not less than flawless in your own way,
And youre not perfect but to me you were

Ask Me to Love You

I stay up all night and I write you a letter
To explain myself better
But I’m stuck in the dearI’m full of one liners to keep you impressed
But his lack of interest
Seems to best my attempt

I probably deserve this from something I did
Probably treated some kid
Too poorly for God

And so I’ll take my lashes but I’ll never be still
At least not until
Your hand is in mine

It’s four in the morning I should probably lay down
But my heart’s stuck on this
And I’m breathing to loud
And I’m hoping too hard and I’m starting to pray
That God to start working
In obvious ways
So go to bed crying but know all that you need
Is to ask me to love you
And grow old beside me

Those we hurt most are often those we love most
But I don’t think it’s supposed
To make you cry every night

They say love is to give and lust is to get
I’ll be the first to admit
I think you’ve got it all wrong

There comes a time where you have to decide
To live a whole life
Or start something new

And I would imagine a decision like that
Should hang on more than some looks
And on more than some cash

You say, “How can I love and not be loved in return?”
I say, “Yeah, I hear that,” and give you my word.
You say, “Who do you love that’s not giving you your own?”
I tell her, “Look at the clock, it’s almost time to go.”

Another Summer

Another summer turns to ice
Yet I fail to recognize
When I look into your eyes
What will become of you and ISomewhere between paper and pen
Take a breath and count to ten
The paper moves under my lead
I should have left this all unsaid

Hellos and goodbyes, my name resides
Behind your tongue, alone unsung
I lie awake, screaming your name
Nowhere to hide, nowhere to hide
Close my eyes and start to cry
“At least I tried, at least I tried…”

I’m counting stars to pass the time
And keeping constellations set aside
To give to you in the morning
To think of me every night

Somewhere between paper and pen
We might have never been
And that is why I’ll use this lead
To tell you all that’s left unsaid

Hellos and goodbyes, my name resides
Behind your tongue, alone unsung
I lie awake, screaming your name
Nowhere to hide, nowhere to hide
Close my eyes and start to cry
“At least I tried, at least I tried…”

I asked God to show me life
And he showed me how to be
I asked God to show me purpose
And he showed me how to breathe
I asked God to show me love
He gave me you

Hellos and goodbyes, my name resides
Behind your tongue, alone unsung
I lie awake, screaming your name
Nowhere to hide, nowhere to hide
Close my eyes and start to cry
“At least I tried, at least I tried…”

Another summer turns to ice
Yet I fail to recognize

The Undecided

If I could have done something differently
I would have said I loved you when it would have meant something
Not just a word to discard like another excuse to leave
And I’ll never understand how something so perfect could fail

It just doesn’t make sense
It hurts so bad to know
You’re crying all alone
It hurts so bad to know
You’re sitting at home
It hurts so bad to know
Erasing memories of me
Erase the memories

I know I never took a moment for granted I thanked the lord every day
For giving me this one, it was my reason to wake up
I know it must feel strange to read about yourself while your moving on
But just as stubbornly as you walk away is just as stubbornly as I stand in

It just doesn’t make sense
It hurts so bad to know
You’re crying all alone
It hurts so bad to know
You’re sitting at home
It hurts so bad to know
Erasing memories of me
Erase the memories

Bottles of feeling stored up somewhere you keep them far from your heart
Locked in your diary where I wrote a page expecting to come back some day
Burn, burn, the pages turn, faces lost in the smoke
Move, move, it feels so unsafe to get stronger by being broke

There’s no coming back to where we
It’s just a feeling that eats at my gut
But my heart holds on
The strongest muscle in my body I’m surprised it hasn’t stopped
Beating from the beating it took and will take again
Hearts never let go of the memories they try to forget

Our song I keep on humming it, in my head
Can she even listen to these words and not regret
Our song I keep on humming it, in my head
Can she even listen to these words and not regret

At the end of each sentence you see three dots
That’s the part where I gather my thoughts
Remembering words you said, the things you wrote
And the hearts you broke
The last words that you said were good night
But what you meant was, “I hope that you don’t die.”
“I hope your ready to live life alone”
As quickly as I came in I’m about to go

It just doesn’t make sense
It hurts so bad to know
You’re crying all alone
It hurts so bad to know
You’re sitting at home
It hurts so bad to know
Erasing memories of me
Erase the memories

I want to look into your eyes just to see if there’s anything that matches mine
Any hint that you miss me
Andy hint that we were more than a dream
Cause that’s what it feels like to me

Someday, When I’m Younger

Someday, when I’m younger
I won’t learn to love another
I’ll stay strong and I’ll stay steady
Even if my heart gets heavy
I’ll get married and have a family
I’ll stay strong and I’ll stay steady
Cause traveling gets you nowhere
When your walking in the darkAnd someday when I’m wiser
I’ll try not to be a liar
I’ll stay honest I’ll stay humble
Even if it makes me tremble
I’ll be brave and I’ll be kind
I’ll stay honest I’ll stay humble
Cause lying gets you nowhere
When you’re lying to yourself

And someday when I’m loved
I’ll believe it’s not enough
I’ll keep staying I’ll keep trying
To keep that love from dying
Even if were always fighting
I’ll keep staying I’ll keep trying
Cause even if it’s miserable
At least I’ll still be normal

And someday, when I’m younger
I’ll watch couples love each other
I’ll stay strong and I’ll stay steady
Even if my heart gets heavy
I’ll pretend I’m always happy
I’ll stay strong and I’ll stay steady
Cause love’s not about how good you feel
And all about what you do

And someday, when I’m dying
I’ll regret every minute

Beginning of it All

He watches clouds role by
As his day unfolds
He looks into her eyes
And he feels the hole
Inside his heart
She’s the missing piece
But he hides his love
Because he’s afraid of what she thinksAnd she’s the face he sees when he wakes up
And she’s the smell on the breeze as his day starts
And she’s the word he sings
When anyone says, “I love you.”
I love you

He takes her by the hand
She holds him by the heart
She is on the edge
About to fall apart
She presses close
Her breath upon his neck
She’s waited forever
She hopes this never ends

And he’s the face she sees when she wakes up
And he’s the smell on the breeze as her day starts
And he’s the word she sings
When anyone says, “I love you.”
I love you

She gazes at the stars
He can feel it inside
He wishes she
Was here tonight
He dares not tell her
Because in his mind
He fears that she
Won’t respond in kind

And she’s the face he sees when he wakes up
And she’s the smell on the breeze as his day starts
And she’s the word he sings
When anyone says, “I love you.”
I love you

He looks into the wind
He hears her nearby
He wonders where
They’re headed with their lives
He wonders if
He should reveal his lies
But instead he turns
To his pain inside

And she’s the face he sees when he wakes up
And she’s the smell on the breeze as his day starts
And she’s the word he sings
When anyone says, “I love you.”
I love you

Before I Fall Asleep

I couldn’t sleep tonight
Cause I was too scared to close my eyes
Too scared to leave reality behind
And slip into a dream
The kind where you wake up crying
The kind I have when you aren’t thinking of meAnd I know I’ll keep on breathing
Even if it’s not for you
And I know my heart will keep beating
But I’m scared to death
Of living without you

I stayed awake and watched my phone
To see if I’d get a text goodnight
But it never rang and it breaks my heart
To think you fell asleep
Without even a worry
Without even a word from me

Before I pass out
I just want to say
That I love you in every way
And if you ever decide
That you need me in your life
I’ll be here with my arms open wide

Ashes of an Angel

Looking out the window
He sees her pass by
Leaving tracks in the snow
So he grabs his coat
And out he goes
To catch up to her
Steps off the curb
And runs faster
And He finds her there
Standing alone
There’s white everywhere
She smiles at him
And he smiles backAnd the ashes of an angel fall tonight
A snow white sacrifice
And I can’t help but look into their eyes
And watch their breath start to rise
Like the love inside their hearts
But living only lasts a minute
And that’s when you start to die

They go inside
To escape the ice
He warms her up with his arms
Brushing off the snow
They sit in the glow
Of the Fireplace
And tell the stories of their lives
That brought them face to face
Was it just a meeting
Or was every decision
Meant for this one?
To stay warm with him?
Or go back to the cold
Cold and still alone?

Days turn to months turn to years and they hold on
Hold out through smiles and tears
They get married and have children
Two sons and a daughter
But one dies early on
Things keep getting harder
They lose jobs, gain promotions
And rarely take vacations
But since he joined the army
They still can see the world
Before you know it they’ve grown old
And they smile at their grandkids
The only proof of the life that they lived
And even through it all
They remained unchanged in love
Through sixty full years of memories
Only memories
Just a memory of a life so different from now

They look so cold
They look so old laying side by side
And holding tight
To the memories
That brought them
To where they lay
Day by day
They keep on breathing life
Into their lovers heart
Too scared to be the first to die
And leave the other alone
Cold and old tonight

A couple only grows closer
If it’s really meant to be
But like the flame of a candle
Burning through the wax
Until it hit’s the stand
It can only grow colder
As the flame dies out
With nothing left to burn
And then it’s over
The light fades to black
And you’re left only to stare
On what you had
And know that it will never come back

And the ashes of an angel fall tonight
A snow white sacrifice
And I can’t help but look into their eyes
And watch their breath start to rise
Like the love inside their hearts
Living only lasts a minute
But true love never dies

Just Driving

Well I went driving
Just for fun
Down some streets
I’d never driven
And I felt comfort
Just staring
Straight ahead
To the horizonAnd I didn’t say a word
Or listen to CDs
I just thought
About you and me

I just drove
With the windows
Rolled down
All the way
And with my elbow
Hangin’ out
‘Till it got numb
From the breeze

But I had to pull over
And let the sunlight warm my smile
And just think of you
For a while

Well I went
To get my palm read
Just to see
What my future held
She sat me down
And began reading
That I’d be happy
And have wealth
But she said I give my heart out
Too easily to anyone
And that I never found it hard
To fall in love

When she finished
She asked me
To think of a question
In my mind
So I asked
If I’d be a hero
And have purpose
In my life

And she replied, “You’ll find an angel,
That will help you live yours through.”
Well I think that that angel
Must be you

The next day
I went back
To get my fortune
Read again
I just wanted
The chance
To ask
Another question

I asked, “Who do I pray to,
When I want to know what’s true?”
And she replied, “Remember that angel?”
I said, “I do.”

Well I went home
And asked God
To show the angel
In my life
And I know
He heard my prayer
Because I dreamt
Of you that night